Thursday, December 19, 2013

Just Random Car Incidents

We left very early in the morning yesterday because our car is not allowed to be running in the city after seven because of car coding. 
So this is what happen: We all acme to the office with just  "pambahay" clothes. 

Sunday, December 1, 2013


I have issues with people who are trying to get into the way of how I would like to raise up my child. I mean trying to impose their views on hoe should I do it. Don't they just know that I want to do it my way and I'm exploring what's best and not for me and my baby? 
Some people would just like to get something out from me for their opinion. 

Wednesday, November 27, 2013

Tarp and the likes

Rolled tarps are at the other room waiting to be hang on or put on. I don't if the boss is just waiting for me to act upon it or he's just busy to face it. I once heard him say "look for an area where we can put this tarps", but since it needs some drilling on the walls I cannot help him and so the tarps are just lying there.
We have printed a lot of pictures and tarps for the office use and have paid a lot too. If we only have a printing source/tool like printing america, we probably have save a lot of money. I hope the boss would come across this page and learn.

Tuesday, November 26, 2013

Such a brave little one

It's hard to be a mom looking at your dearest little one having injections.  My girl would just look at me and "mommy" then look at the needle that is being thrust into the back of her hand. She did cry very loud at the first it was done with her. 
I felt the pain of course but I tried my best to be composed and relax, but actually I'm not and all I want and prayed that I can take my baby back home again.

(my little girl in the mci hospital)


That is short for "Oh my...!" Life can never be quiet and lonely here at the office with my baby girl. It seems that no matter I tried to relax it simply just don't occur to me. She knows my drawer and eventually memorized what's inside every drawer.
Now I cannot help but wonder how it feels to be focused and productive and not being destructed.

Thursday, November 7, 2013

Typhoon Yolanda hits my province (Abuyog Leyte)

I heard from the news last night that it would hit my province last night. I kept on calling my Dad's phone to get updates but his phone is dead. I hope and pray that the typhoon is not that bad in where they are even though the news says it's the strongest. I trust the Lord that He's protection is over my families. 
Pray with us.

Philippines, typhoon, strongest hit Philippines, Philippine typhoon, Pagasa, superstorm,

Thursday, October 17, 2013

Us: at the moment

We're feeling impatient: The house is not yet done. There's still a lot to do... a lot to buy.  Money is almost gone.  How I really wish that it will all be done today.

I told hubby the  other day to stop thinking of stuff to buy for the house specially if we don't have means to do it co's it's just drive us crazy thinking of ways. SO annoying! Yet actually when hubby is quiet my mind is busy thinking of the things I want to put in my house such as a beautiful table with a flame retardant printed tablecloth to make the house look happy. Funny wasn't I?

Hubby  just don't know what I'm thinking these days. It's all expenses.

Sunday, October 6, 2013

Back in the old days (ThrowbackThursday)

True friends are indeed hard to find these days.. reasons why we have to treasure the one we have.  Sometimes we have to carefully consider our actions and decisions in the fear that we might hurt our friends deeply or worst lose them .

I am thankful that even though I don't have the perfect friends nor the perfect group... and though I have only a handful... I can say they're still the best. 
Thankful for the one close and those who are far.

Thank you Lord for my friends. :)  

Friday, September 27, 2013

Home and doing house chores

Almost done with the laundry co's I'm on the last part.. spinning it. The people working on the other house is keeping my speedy work. sigh! Looking at the them working there makes me kind of wish they also have done like that with our house before we moved in. For sure we have less frustration about our house these days specially when the rain starts pouring.

Hubby called the Engineer in-charge of water proofing this morning to know when they will come to fix the house, he just said on Wednesday again after the many days he promise he will. I do hope that they'll  buy epoxy I mean the right epoxy to use so that it won't be washed away again when another rain comes again.

Hoping for better days!

Excited Much

It was twenty zero zero eight when I last head a ministry to the youth and the kids. Feeling exhausted of heading a ministry at church for over nine years, so after I got married I told my church leaders that I will rest from  doing it and will come back again when I'm ready. Well when you do the ministry for a long time you really know what I mean when I said I felt very exhausted.

Now.. I'm ready and very excited for  the come back. Not maybe at the same church where I used to be a full time worker. Hubby are starting it with because we saw the need of starting it. Then come what may... the Lord is in our side and I know that for sure.

Monday, September 16, 2013

House Issues

The rain is hitting hard on my house again. The walls are some kind of a sponge where it take all the water rain, then since there's loads of rain for two consecutive nights, it somewhat overflowed in our inside.  We could see the water on our walls seems ready to explode. There is nothing we can do but sigh and hope that the people in-charge would do something about it quickly co's every time we told them about our house issues it would take them months to address it.

Good thing though... we were able to little by little beautify our house and has manage to change knobs too in spite of financial issues. Yesterday hubby was able to put a nice big mirror on our wall above our television set.

There are loads of things to be done still but we are happy that little by little we finally put things in order, even though we are still in need of more knob changing... just thinking now the  amount of push-pull knobs should I be saving to get a quality one.

Thursday, September 12, 2013

Browsing on how to get to Tibet

There are  so many permits to get, many docs to provide  to visit this amazing place. It has been my dream ever since I was young to set foot on this place. I really hope that one day..someday.. my dreams will come true. As for now what I can do is know the rules and regulations so that when the days comes.. it's not that hard for me. :)

Sunday, August 25, 2013

If only

...hubby could convert our other room into a mini-studio and not needing it for dining space he might have done it without even asking for my permission. His guitar is at our missions center together with his other gadgets, though his mini-speaker is here at our house and he doesn't like that set-up. He wants his stuff near and at viewable area. :)

He once told me told me that he wants another brand new guitar along with new guitar gadgets. I wonder if he heard about behringer ada8000 ultragain pro 8-ch a/d & d/a converter and I am so interested of what are his thoughts. For sure he'll be like... "look friends check this out" to his band mates.

He made me wish we have a bigger house with lots of room and space.

Friday, August 23, 2013

1 Corinthians 13

I have memorized these verses so many times, have read it many times as well but up to now I I have not fully memorized it. Probably  because I have not memorized it by heart. I just hope though that when I try to do it again... I mean.. read and read and re-read, I'll be able to memorized it by heart, so that every time I get angered I think of these and be back to my beautiful again.

Thursday, August 22, 2013

I wish

..that after all the worries the typhoon had inflect me, someone would give me a free whole body massage, a gift check for shopping, booked me a room in a five star hotel, give me and hubby the provision and time to go on a date, someone would send me  thousands of dollars to fix the damage the monsoon caused, and then I wish too that aside from the above mention wishes.. someone will give me a box of wholesale jewelry accessories.

I know that I am just day dreaming but the feeling is good when you wish even though you know full well it won't happen.

Sunday, August 11, 2013

First Thing

Coming to an office with no internet is quite boring. I’m glad that at least I have this computer where I can write down my thoughts. I wish we have a secretary in here where I can talk to.  Or just wishing my hubbyness is part of this organization as well so that there is him and me in here working, at least there is someone I’m sure would do the things I won’t like running errands.

Here I am again staring at my keyboard hoping I’ll be able to start work.  So much paper works is really not my forte’ of work. I guess I’m better outside having a deep talk with people, but the trouble about it is… I become too involve with their problems that I feel so tired after the talk.  But I love having a deep conversation with people encouraging them to continue living right…  though doing the right things seems the hardest thing to do.

Wednesday, July 31, 2013

He promised and so I trust!

I strongly believe that God fulfill His promise, and all that He wants me to do is be still and wait upon on Him. It's hard and I'm not denying it. There are times that I became hopeless and don't trust God anymore but every time I come into my senses I asked for forgiveness from being doubtful.

I hope and pray that I will indeed praise Him as I wait for Him to finally do His promise. It has been said that "heaven and earth may fail but the Word of God will prevail."

Happy day :)

It's really hard to come to the office with daughter specially in the morning when almost all the buses are jam packed with people who are rushing to get to their work on time. I was restless this morning co's I don't know how to hold the time to keep it from running so that I could arrive at the office earlier than expected.

I have to pushed people from the bus isle so that my two year would not be crushed. We took here with us today because we have family retreat tomorrow till Saturday with my office mates. I thinking of staying here at the office and have asked my boss if  we can stay for the night. After my boss saying yes to me hubby came with a hotel key on his hands telling he just booked us a room at the hotel. Woot! woot!

He got a free accommodation room at the hotel where we used to booked our visitors. So since he has done that a lot of time and haven't got any freebies he tried to asked this time if he could and got one. Wish I could get hubby a mxl mics for his being so resourceful.  For sure it would made his day too as he made mine. :)

Tuesday, July 30, 2013

Throwback: back then

Look at us, we're young skinny and free. Oh college life.. my friends made you very remembering. My days then would never that be meaningful without them.

I miss you all so much friends.


Friday, July 26, 2013

More stuff in mind

I'm thankful that God has allowed us to get a house we can call ours. Though I can say that it's not the perfect house or my dream house but still it's my our house. My house is too small for a couch, a fridge and other necessary things a house must have.

Much that I want to have a gas fireplace mantel in my house the space won't permit me. I know we live in a tropical country and a fireplace is not necessary but last night hubby was shaking after we came home soaked with rain co's we forgot to bring our raincoats to work. Two hours in the rain is really bad, but what can we do all we've got as a vehicle to get us to work and back is a motorcycle.

I know someday God will grant us a car or our dream mini-van. Someday!

Wednesday, July 24, 2013

A little uneasy

..not to mention annoyed. I know my work and how things work.  I get a little out of control about hubby’s decision making as well. When he would tell me things about his work and the people  working with him I get a little angry and part of me would want to yell at him to stop it co’s it’s driving me crazy.
It’s just… some people needs a little yelling to get them back to their reasonable thinking. I’m keeping my tongue on leash but my mind is in engaging in battle. I’m like a boiling pot ready to explode.  So scary… me!

Yet in all these that is happening inside of me… I yield myself to God trusting Him to hold me close and never let me go.     

Sunday, July 14, 2013

Laos... here he comes you better be good with him.
I'm torn between it's okay and not of this hubby's trip to Laos for several reasons. I know that I'm taught to believe this saying "when the Lord send you to missions He'll also sends you the provisions". I believe that He is able but the waiting is just too painful.  Hubby left already and nothing is heard about the provisions yet but I know that somewhere there the blessings is about to fall. I/we just have to go through with the waiting process.

My hopes are still up and I'm hoping that hubby will got bless while he's in there with financial provision and of course somehow would bring me a ring from Joy Jewelers and that would make my day the greatest. I've been telling him to give me a ring and this just the perfect one. Lovely!

Thursday, July 4, 2013

my beautiful little boss

My little girl is with me today at the office. My life here was normally quiet and all is just work and internet. Then she came along today and my little quiet world is turned upside down.

Edited her own photo

Monday, June 24, 2013

Home to home

Going here and there and back.
Yup! this has been us since yesterday. Moving is really a tiring job to do. Hubby started at 7am up to 12mn and yet our stuff seems don't end.

I wish we can afford to pay people to transfer stuff and a truck too.

Monday, May 27, 2013

Deep.. deep.. deep sigh

Kung madadala lang sa deep deep sigh and lahat burado na siguro ang lahat ng worries ko. My mind says let go... but heart keep on asking why?.. why there are people who loves to take advantage the trusting heart of others.

My heart is torn but I hold on to my God knowing He can turn a bad day into a beautiful one.

Friday, May 17, 2013

Moving soon

We are soon ending a chapter of our life (what I mean is we're moving house again) and for this time this will gonna be permanent. It's gonna be.. "bye bye ACM, hello Lancaster", and this is the same thing with the in-laws too. They have loads of not good memories here in this place and it's time to close that chapter of their lives.

One thing is just not sure with the in-laws... it's the transportation. The place where we're going to move to has no buses and jeepney yet. The only public transportation there   is  a multi-cab and tricycles. The multi-cab run only from 530am to 9pm  and the tricycles pays so much. I'm just thinking what if sister-in-law and brother-in-law comes late from school. Maybe they could take with them a pepper spray keychain as a self defense.

I don't know why I'm thinking of self defense but I can't help it.

Friday, May 10, 2013

Today is the sixth day

We have four people plus hubby working to finish our house. I really thought that having such number working there would made the work easy and quickly, but I am so wrong because of the many things that needs some fixing, a week is not enough even with such number.

I'm really worried now because I have only given them two days (according to my budget) but the work is not yet done.  I  actually have accepted the fact that it won't be happening that in tow days  and so stretched my budget to five days. Now i don't know how would the house be done and when can we move.

Dear Jesus please come to our aid!

Wednesday, May 1, 2013

Little by little

We got the key at last after a long time of waiting, but honestly the house is not yet good for taking in. We are still working with the developers people and still waiting for them to work on the issues we are telling them. Up to now we were not able to transfer, but I'm keeping my emotion at low phase to promote friendship and not enemies.

They are now digging our front yard again because they forgot to put an outlet in our septic tank. Hubby is now concern about where he would park his tiny motorbike because the dirt they dug is on our yard. If hubby has a 4 post lift only he would be not worried about his precious motorbike anymore.

Sometimes it's hard to understand men and developer.  ;)

Tuesday, April 2, 2013

13 hours going and 16 hours coming back

Having a 21mos. old baby girl in the bus going to Aparri of 13 hours and 16 hour coming back to Manila plus another 2 1/2 coming home to Cavite bus ride is not easy and comfy. I cannot relax and sleep is always derived. I'm just glad I'm back home now.

Ziah though enjoys the ride:

Aparri bus trip 2013

Monday, March 25, 2013

Just thinking

I need to finish my online obligations before I need to go vacationing. I need it to be done before the clock hit 11 co's after that I need to prepare myself too. I still have one more to do until all is good and I'll be free from any obligations and can fully enjoy my time away from home and internet.

Hubby is on vacation too from recording and band practice.

Will soon be here =)

My family will be boarding on a bus later today heading to the North end of  the Philippines. We will be spending our five day s there. I really can't wait!

(picture not owned)

For my eyes only

Hubby will be getting the key to our house soon, if only it's not a three day holiday because of  holy week we might have gotten it this week. I am so excited for many things now, indeed this year has brought me good tidings: new house, new job and all new beautiful things to expect.

I wish that I can get this beautiful ceramic portion control plate for my kitchen. I know for sure they are nice and not easily broken. Oh.. how I love kitchen stuff and beautiful kitchens. I am actually planning to save money for a granite kitchen counter. I hope I can have the money for it the soonest possible.

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

In-laws vs Apari trips

We are set for our summer holy week trip to Apari. I've thinking about this place since I was a kid and now that friends are going there I am determined to go to. All is set and we are about to book our flight next week. Hubby and I are excited about it when my hubby's sister announced that she's going to get married on the 27th day of this month the next day that were out.

I'm a little **** I want to be of both places but I think we will go on with the trip instead and just have dinner with the couple when we return, there is nothing going on aside from the civil wedding that will take place at the town municipality. Sister-in-law is ten weeks pregnant and the wedding. So I guess we'll just celebrate it after the wedding and the trip.

Thursday, March 7, 2013

Issues with upplies

I really have serious issues with the house we mortgage developer. It's not that I don't like them, it's just they don't seriously monitor the house stuff supplies their contractor is putting in the house. We went their the other day and the doors are broken and not fully attached, the floors are cracked and a lot of other the disappointing things to see.

If they only took extra time to monitor supplies I might have no problems, but I guess their focus mainly on getting discounts on industrial supply company, but what they don't see is owner client like us won't take the house like that and we demand that they change everything.

I really hope all things would be okay next week so that next month we'll be able to move.

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

He's set, I'm not!

I woke in the middle of the night thinking of going to the mission camp this coming April. I told hubby about my desire in the morning, he once agreed but disagree after thinking on how we could pay the tickets and all. So now I don't know as well if I'm going or not really. The thought of being left in the house alone for five days is giving me total loneliness even now.  I am confused now :(.

How I wish I have more money to spend for trips (ministry or not).

Thursday, February 21, 2013

It's flying with flyers

It's like Christmas season again in the Philippines because it's about voting time again. Election is near and when times like this comes  the politician are being generous  or too generous to get the people's heart and vote. Some people because of poverty take advantage of this opportune time. As for me... they would never buy my vote. I may be in a dire need of cash these days but my vote is just too precious.

For sure the most demand service these days is printing or flyer prints, businesses like this are too busy printing flyers, banners, streamers, and other election paraphernalia. I just hope and pray that those who would be elected will indeed do their job and won't   take advantage of it.

God bless the Philippines!

My trip to Apari might not happen

It sees that we are the only person in the world that is very much struggling when it comes to finances. But of course I know that this is not true because there are suffering from severe loss than I do. Yet this struggle I'm feelin is just crazy as it be. How I wish now that I have a paying job.

Our trip to Apari might get cancel (just me, Ziah and hubby though) co's we don't have the money for this anymore, have given it to mom-in-law already to help her for whatever helps it may gives her.

Monday, February 18, 2013


In spite of what we are going through with finances right now, I am still very much thankful that not all source are closing just some. I believe with the saying that "a door may be close, but the windows are still open!". Lacking in finances won't bring me too low I must say but the thought of it could weakens me, but definitely could not turn me upside down.

There are still poorer than me I know and yet could manage spend their little cash on something not beneficial. I'm not against those people who smoke a punch cigars for I know they can afford to spend extra money for this. As for I just don't have the means for this specially this kind of time.

Trying to stay calm

Mind and heart is at war this time. Trying to be brave and strong for the sake of my hubby. When financial issues hit you hard it mostly weakens your strong will to continue serving Him without thinking of doing the other way.

I know very well that days like this will definitely come, but God has warned us about this too. He did not just only warned us but has given us His unwavering promises.

Now.. I tried to stay calm in the midst of our financial storms knowing God has his special ways in providing all our needs.

Friday, February 15, 2013

Need a rice and coffee break

My church is on a fast for forty days and so do I. I just select a meal and some other food that I mostly eat and beverage that I mostly drinks like coffee and rice. Actually I'm on my fifth day now and still counting. I maybe don't eat rice and don't drink coffee but I ate loads of veges and don't do much physical work. So instead of losing it I kind of gain more weight.

How I wish I have some friends near my house where we can do some workout together somewhere or even just here at the house. I actually we can also do yoga co's there are loads of yoga dvds where we can get on stores now.

Actually, all  I need is a motivator.

So many mission trips

Hubby's calendar is full of missions trips local and abroad. He came home the other day telling me about mobilizing youth to come with him to a mission trip to Laos Cambodia.  We thought that there doing it in Sabah Indonesia but apparently they changes their mind and headed for Cambodia instead, and he is needing   500 dollars for that trip. Just to think that the trip is on May.

Not only that... hubby has local trips too.  On April hubby is going to Mindoro for Global Intercessor activity  and he's attending a youth camp in Davao in May as well.

Then we also have personal trips.  Last week next month hubby and I together with some friends are going to Apari and going home to visit my family after seven years in Leyte on June.

So many trips.... so little money and has no paying jobs.  So help us God!

Thursday, January 31, 2013

Just here sitting

I'm  home browsing, thinking and writing. I have so much in mind about the future. I cannot help but think of a beautiful kitchen and buying a car.  You can't blame me if I'm thinking like this co's I'm married and renting a house, I have an almost two year old girl and we have only motorcycle for a ride. So now my mind is full of thoughts on how we could surpass all these and live a simple yet easy life.

Actually, aside from the serious thoughts I have, I also am thinking about going somewhere where I could relax and forget about the real world. I wish I'm in Banff where I could go skiing with friends and just forget the super warm world where I am now. Thinking I am now putting my ski to a thule ski racks for a rest after a tiring but fun day.

The reality is... I'm just right here in front of my netbook writing while looking after my baby.

My mind is rolling again

Got the chance to talked with my youth pastor (before) and team leader (just recently) and soon-to-be boss (soon) about a job opportunity for me. I thank God for giving me hope to find a job that hopefully I like and hoping I'll be getting a good compensation too. 

I told him that I needed some work co's I need some extra cash too. He understand my end. Having a baby, renting a house, paying a loan and bills dues are really a job pusher.  deep sigh!

wish to be back here again and think nothing about dues!

Monday, January 21, 2013

With the not good people

I met another friend when I went to see a friend. It's just good to see people who don't usually see that just give you good normal vibes. This friend lady were struggling financially the past few years co's not only they have little money they also have loads of children. She has eight and probably counting but the good thing now is she has a little business that is growing bigger and is really a big help financially to the family.

The place where she us residing right now is a den of criminals and some people that is being hunted by the law.  She said that a neighbor was being abducted and was brought to a place where it looks like it was an abandoned building but in there where loads of children ages from 1-10 both boys and girls.

I wonder though if those people who abducted these children are drugged people reason why they don't take pity on them. If only I could go there and rescue those kids and do a random clia waived test on those people and see if they are under drugs and send those abductors in jail specially their mastermind.

If only! All I can do this time is pray!

Another Trip planned

Soon I  will be browsing some places to go for a trip in August with my friend. I don't know if I'll be bringing with me my baby girl or I'll just leave her behind with her Daddy and in-laws. A trip that involves no one but myself is a bit stressful co'z i don't know where would I leave my baby when Daddy has to go to work.

Thinking and praying now!

Friday, January 11, 2013

Bicolandia trip

South of Luzon, Philippines.

Atimonan, Quezon

Cagsawa Ruins, Albay

Penafracia Chruch

Cagsawa Ruins (Mayon Volcano on the background)

Science Park (Mayon Volcano)

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

Just to remind me this

I saw this on facebook and I really like  it. It reminds me God He does care about me.